Thoughts which don't allow me to sleep.

Kabhi kisi ka saat Kabhi kisi ki baat Kabhi kisi ka hasna Kabhi kisi ka rona Kabhi kisi ka rahena Kabhi kisi ki yaadein Aur kabhi kabhi ye sab Kisi ek ke kaatir Kabhi kisi ke saat, dekhe hue sapne Kabhi kisi ke baat, mein apna pan Kabhi kisi ka hasna, unn chutkulo pe Kabhi kisi ka rona, unn nasamjiyo pe Kabhi kisi ka rahena, humare kareeb Kabhi kisi ki yaado, mein khojana Aur hamesha ye sab Kisi ek ke kaatir..

I don't know how much more I should have done for you, I don't know and I will never know.  It's the expectations I guess which I shouldn't have kept or the push which I gave you always to do things for me. I have made you weep more than laugh and I believe I should weep more till I rise from this anxious saddening feeling where I am losing you, it's just that I couldn't make peace with myself that I have lost you. I can only promise to myself that I won't make you weep anymore. One thing I can guarantee you that you don't know how much I love you, I have never been able to portray that to you in a honest way, always my pride, my ego, my desire came in middle of it. I've promised a thing to myself that if I ever get a chance to show that love to you, I will, until then it stays with me in my heart, in my words, in my mind, until I get a chance to show it to YOU.   #ALetterWrittenToHerButNeverSent